Back in business!

Listening: James Marsters - Bad
(my new addiction)


Ok, im back!
The old blog don't seem to be up in this century so making a new one seemed easiest at the moment.
Hopefully the other one will be up in the next few months or so, but if not, this is the place you'll find me from now on.

Lots of shit going on now.. Jim finally got a flat, so he'll be moving out on march 1st or something.
That ofcourse means that I'm out in the cold, litterally, since I can't find my own place.
I'll be moving in with his sister temporarily, and it's either keep hoping for some flat to come my way or moving to Spain soon, she won't like having me around forever, though it's obviously nice of her to let me stay there at all:)
I would like to be off to Spain tomorrow, but since I have my job here and everything it seems wise (yeah, I actually meant WISE) to get something to do in Spain before I'm off for real.
I'll be going for 2 weeks in April or so, and then again in June or July for 3 weeks, hope to find something then..
If i don't decide on going for 5 weeks straight and simply never go back to Sweden again, that would be the BEST!

Wasp is coming to play a gig here on April 27th , thats probably the event of the year, or maybe even the century for this town.. looking forward to see them in a smaller place than this summer.
The show was great and all, atleast soundwise, cos I didn't see much at all.. so better luck this time.

Jim buried himself in the bedroom the last 2 weeks or something, he got his new laptop in the mail and I havn't seen much of him since:/
Hes making new friends all over the world, but seem to forget about one of his true friends still living in the same flat..
I don't know, sometimes I think maybe it's better if I leave this place and him in anger... but I won't, even if he deserves it right now.

Finally made a deal with myself about another so called "friend" though.. He's a closed chapter.. and will stay that way.
I decided to sit back and wait this time, I really don't like being the one always staying in contact, always trying one way or another to drag ppl along to make them feel better, when I never ever get anything in return.. I know that's not what real friendship is about, but it's not like it's a one way thing either, so i'm done with it!

Now.. on to a problem that's killing me from the inside out..
My CAT!!, I get to bring him to Jim's sister when living with her, she just had to give her cat away for several reasons, and she loves him alreay:)
But.. when I'm finally off to Spain, I can't bring him!!
Try to imagine the heartache, he's been with me for the past 8 years, and he means everything in the world to me.
I would love to bring him with me, but putting him on a plane, and in a cage for atl 1 month or whatever, would kill him, and I can't risk that.
I will leave behind the best friend I have ever had, and ever will for that matter.
I know he will have a great life with Jim.. but I never trust anyone enough with him.
Might be because I'm jelous, or might be my conscience, I really don't know..

But it sure sucks big time!!!!

2 and a half hour before i need to go to work, wish I could have slept some, I'm really beat now.
I'll be in bed in 10 min when i get home this afternoon I hope, but knowing me.. I will be awake late again, and have maybe 2 hours sleep before the next day..

Can anyone see why I hate my life right now??