For What I Need!

I've always had a hard time ending things, but at this point in life where I'm at, I have no choice.

The nights are the hardest, everyone knows that!
What usually works the best for me is staying awake for as long as possible, until the body can't take no more. Not that I'm very relaxed when I wake up the next day, but I got some sleep.

This week I've been through Hell!!!
OK, so I tend to feel a bit sorry for myself, but I don't deserve going through my life feeling like crap every single day.
Life isn't supposed to be depressing, it's about doing what you love..

I'm stuck at a job where people literally hate me.. I liked my work until January, I still like the Work-part.. just not the feeling of dragging my ass there every day, doing something no one appreciates.
I have someone at work that despise me so much, she would probably do anything at this point, just to get me fired.
Up until this day, I made a promise to myself I wasn't gonna let her get to me.
I've been treating her like air, not even looking her way.. and I think it worked out so far.
She's always a bitch, can't deny that.. but at least this way I didn't have to look at her mean face every single fucking day!

Today, it all changed.
Got a call this morning from that same person, asking me about what I've been talking about at breakfast yesterday at work.
I told her what I had said, and who it was about.. she got that it was a HUGE misunderstanding going on.. but where the fuck was the apology???
She said it was chaotic at work, that people had heard what I was talking about and obviously misunderstood.
She couldn't even act like a human being when she realized i did nothing wrong, all she could do was putting me down like always. Making me feel like I really DID something, talking bad about people at work (that I don't even know, for that matter).

If only the one person that obviously didn't care about listening to a private conversation, would have gotten the facts before opening their fucking mouth about stuff they they know NOTHING about.. I would have been able to go to work today, feeling crap like always, but still get to work!

Instead I had to stay home, because I felt like shit over something I didn't even do.
How am I supposed to go to work again when everyone there thinks I'm spreading vicious rumours about others.
I have no idea how I'm gonna work this out.. I will need to have a discussion with my boss about this.. I AM NOT GOING BACK THERE!!!!
I have no clue what to do.. I can't quit just like that, but as of now, I never want to set foot at that place again.

I Hate that she gets to win, but at some point I have to stop fighting against it, she won't stop until I'm gone, and I can't take this anymore.